another day in the life

so confused about marriage.  about love.  what is it?  how does it work??? 
i have done it all wrong...that's all i know.  but i don't know how to do it all
right!  whew.  all new rules and boundaries and expectations and separation. 
i don't get it and it feels dangerous and i feel unsafe and yet free?  hmmm. 
it doesn't make any sense.  loving is a bit like flying.  DON"T LOOK DOWN! 
every time i start thinking, "what the hell am i doing?  giving up my secrets? 
tearing down my walls in order to reach out to this other person?"  that's me
looking down, and in that moment it is all too much.  i don't know.  don't know
what love is or how to do it "right".  and if right means feeling like i'm falling
outta the sky all the time--eek!  that sucks!   so hear we go.  another day in the
life of someone trying to give His love away.  tentitively...

yet another song...speaking for me.

guess it may by rosie thomas

I’m still learning what love is
Everyday I wake up in your arms
I’m still trying to figure out what works
How to set off all your alarms

I’m still learning what love is
When I’m walking close to you
The best way to hold your hand in mine
The best way to comfort you

Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
It may always be this way

I’m still learning what love is
Every time you look at me that way
I’m still trying to figure out just how
You can still look at me the same

Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
It may always be this way

Even though I may not get it right
All the time I will always try
And I will always stand right by your side

I’m still learning what love is
Everyday I wake up in your arms
I’m still trying to figure out what works

Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
Guess it may
It may always be this way