expensive grace?

i've been thinking about grace lately. how much it costs SOMEONE. i got there by thinking about how much it cost me....and that took me quickly to how much it must cost God to give His grace to me...and then it took me to easter. and how much it cost Him on that cross. my sin cost Him His Son. my sin cost Him hurt and pain that makes my cost look minuscule. pennies to his billions. embarrassing all the sudden--that i'm counting my cost...the hurt that it takes to stay, when His cost is infinitely more than mine.

this song is all about my hurt. and it's alot. but His is more...when i think about my hurt...i think about His...i hope i never forget this lesson...

Between The Lines by sara barreilles

Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
Cause i cant continue pretending to choose
The opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times

My memory is cruel
Im queen of attention to details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn i'd heard him say it ten thousand times
If only i had been listening

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines

I thought i thought i was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late two choices to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So i've learned to listen through silence

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me always be
You and me always be

I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on
Wait for me i'm almost ready
When he meant let go

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always be
You and me
Always between the lines