reckless driving

i went for a drive today. . . it was quite the daring exploit-- considering how expensive gas is! i really didn't intend to go for a drive--it just kinda happened. i was driving home this afternoon, watching the weather trying decide what to do--and a good song came on the radio. i simply couldn't control the urge to drive right by my house . . . hey, for once there was no one screaming in the backseat or waiting for me at home so i took a backroad to wherever instead . . . i felt reckless. windows down, radio loud--just me and my thoughts. i love the quiet chaos my own company provides. i miss thinking. is that crazy? i miss all the thinking i did before i became permanantly attatched to a little person. i know it's a simple pleasure but it felt so good to endulge myself in this forbidden whim. rarely does a mom get to reject the peanut butter and jelly of life and opt for the filet mignon! today was one of those days! God bless the inlaws for providing me this much needed solace!

i can't explain what choosing the illogical does for me. . . i believe i have a renegade soul. sometimes i physically need to reject the obvious practicality of life--in the small ways--or i think instead of driving past my house aimlessly one saterday afternoon i would run away from home!!! maybe saying that makes me crazy but oh well! :)

i think we would all benefit from dropping the ball every once in a while. i begged my husband to let me cancel everything we had today and just stay home--in our pj's all day. maybe that's a bit extreme but i think it would be good for us. . . i think it would be good for everyone. who says you always have to answer the phone? i just want to be where i am for awhile--is that really so bad? in this busy, crazy world i think a worthless day is deserved every once in a while. He didn't say, be crazy and know that i am God. He said be still. today has been a great day to calm the crazy waters of my life. to turn off the ringer and just be still. i wish you all a deep breath and a moment of pure and guilt-less irresponsibility on this still saturday afternoon. be reckless and waste some gas on a backroad to wherever. . .